Written To Pastor Deborah Who Was Known At The Time of This Letter As Pastor Jan
The Writer Was Barely 16 Years Old and A Multi-Generational Satanist Who Accepted Jesus Christ As Her Savior & Lord At The Age Of 14
November 1999
Dear Jan,
Love Always And Forever
This is a very very hard question for me to ask you. I am writing because it’s important to me that I act fast or it’s gonna get pretty ugly. Ok?
Do you want to,, or do you know anyone who would adopt my baby ( not permanently ) but at least until I can get completely out and go underground. I’m dead serious Jan because of you and everything I’ve shared with you I’ve come to love and trust you. And I wouldn’t ask this if I wasn’t serious. I am risking a lot! You cannot imagine the risk I am taking just by asking some things like this. I cannot go on any longer knowing the fate of my unborn child.
If it’s girl, it will probably be sacrificed or raised up to be like her mother ( me ) a breeder for satanic purposes. If it’s a boy, I’ll have a high priest of the Brotherhood as my son. Both destinies are hellish and I simply cannot cause another child to go on like that; So I guess in a way, I’m begging – I have to give this child away or watch Satan defile another young one.
you’ve taught me to care more than I should, and sometimes I wish I could just pretend this isn’t real life, but I can’t. This is a real life, I’m dealing with. I know for now, possibly always, I’m trapped within this group.
It’s is my high priest’s child and I am not playing games. If they got a hold of this letter, I’d be severely punished. If you cannot do this, tell me please. Either way, I’m not trying to force this on you. I know you have a family of your own and don’t need another burden on you, but if you’re really called to help us Satanists out and I know you are, think this as a future high priest-a Satanist of a powerful blood line.
I’m begging you. look around – Christians who are like you only, strong enough to deal with “real ” Satanist and “a real devil” not a weak wanna be!
Well, I’ve got to go now. I’ll c-ya tomorrow night. Think about it will you? I love you – no matter what your decision.
Love Always
P.S. Don’t tell anybody I’ve written this. just don’t ok?
Goodbye