Written To Pastor Deborah By One Of Her Spiritual Children Still Living In The Life and Family Of Multi-Generational Satanism
Fall 2003
Packin Again Cuz We’re Fightin Again
Getting Dressed Cuz I’m Leaving
Gather All My Shit, Cuz I Ain’t Givin In
To You And All Your Lies
This Place Isn’t Safe Inside
I Made A Mistake In Trusting In You,
I Screwed Myself Up, For Moving Back Here With You
All The Broken Glass Confirms I Shouldn’t Have Ever Gone Back With You.
This House Is A Boxing Ring
In My Bedroom, I Sit And Scream
On The Inside, I’m Jumping To Every Shout You Scream
I Can’t Keep Livin Like This, I Can’t Take This Anymore
My Shelter Is A War Zone
Like It’s Bin Laden Banging On My Door
You Say You Don’t Sleep When I’m Awake In The House, But I Stay Awake Cuz I’m Sacred Of You
And Nothing’s Alright, No, Nothing’s Ok
I’m Sleeping Under The Bed And Hiding In The Closets
Like A Little Girl That’s LOST IT
In Our Broken Home
Every Time I Leave Or Make An Attempt
You Get Mad, Hit Me, And Curse Me
You Always Blame Your Problems On Me,
All My Family’s Corrupted
I’m Just A Girl Interrupted
But I’m Running Away
With My Head Phones A Blaring
I’ll Fight With These Words
And Make Me A Fortune
Pay Some Bills In A Home
Without Pills, Dope And Drinkin
Without Men In My Room Shakin And Touching Me
Where Me And My Cat Reside And Not Have To Hide
I’ll Run And Not Have To Take All This Bullshit You Make
And All The Headaches And Pain
No! I Don’t Want A Hit!
No! I aint Smoking That Shit
Gotta Leave Out With A Clear Head, With A Direction That Is Set
In The Opposite Of You
I’m Running Away From This Life, Yes It’s True Now Good-Bye
I’ll Run Til My Face Turn Blue,
Run Away And Forget About You, I’m Cutting All These Strings
Staying Up All Night To Think
Make A Good Escape Plan
Cause You Aint Catchin Me Again
I’m Counting All My Dollars Trying To Make Some Ends Meet
I Wanted More, But I Can’t Wait
I Hear You In The Hall, If You Open My Door,
I’ll Kill You
Forget This Shit And End You
But I Pray You Just Go To Sleep
So I Can Crawl Out My Window In Peace
And Spend One Less Night In Our Broken Home