Written To Pastor Deborah When She Was Known As Pastor Jan
By A Wonderful Young Person Who Has Accepted Jesus Christ As Their Savior And Lord,
But Is Still Trapped In The Life Of Multi-Generational Satanism.
This Precious Young Person Is My Spiritual Child And Who Wrote This Recently To Express Themselves And to Get The Pain Out.
August 2001
Well, It’s Official
I’ve Been Awake 68 Hours Straight!
And Ever Since Tuesday
There’s Been things Going On That’s Hard To Explain
Flashes Of My Past
The Scariest Scenes, The Worst Things Possible
Come Into My Mind
Invade My Thoughts Again And Again
Take Over And Give Pain
Seems My Authority Has Faded Away
And
When The Lights Go Out
The Shadows Begin To Move!
The Old Lady Witch In The Hallway
The Druid In The Wall
The Spiders On The Ceiling
The Snakes In My Skin
All Come Out At Night
When The Lights Go Out!
I Can’t Look In The Mirror
Afraid Of What I Might See
The Face That Is Not Mine
But Still Lives Deep Inside Of Me
That Face Is Haunting
It’s Eyes Always Glaring And Staring At Me
Afraid Of My Reflection
And Yeah
It’s Always Been This Way
5 am Now,
I Know It’s Not The Drugs
Because I Have Been Clean For Almost A Week
Had To Get heroin Off My Back
And Scrape Up What Little Me Is Left
Seems To Be When They All Died, So Did I
Phone Calls Don’t Help
Can’t Fill The Void
That Eats Away At Me, Constantly, Never Ending
I Know The Christians Care, But They Still Can’t See
I’ve Been Locked Inside My Head, And A Prisoner To Their Enemy
Don’t Tell Me To Get Over It, You Can’t See This Mess In Us
Don’t Tell Me It’ll Pass
Each Day It’s Grip Grows Stronger
And So, This My World And I’ve Let You In For Awhile
That’s It!
No Funny Ending Today