February 2001
A letter written to me, Pastor Deborah, by one of my spiritual sons who was a born again child of God but who turned to a life of Satanism and the Occult and Music after the Christian Church betrayed, rejected and hurt him as a young child and teenage so long ago. Satan was waiting for him and picked him up and took him deep into the Kingdom of Darkness and gave him all that he could not find in the Church of his parents. He ended up in the world of Heavy Metal Music, the occult, and the life of Satanism.
He was a recording artist, musician and was lifted up high, famous and rich for other young ones to follow who also were groomed by their parents to fall into the arms of Satan and the Kingdom of Darkness.
His name is Brian, but you would know him by another name.
A Sad Life of A Precious Spirit, Who Pastor Deborah Spiritually Ministered To
The Heavenly Father reached out spiritually with His great Agape Love through Pastor Deborah and touched this lost one and he found it. He discovered the real Christ Jesus and His and His Father’s Love as it was meant to be and I, Pastor Deborah became his spiritual mother. There was still so much hurt and anger towards the people of This God and their church that this young man began trying to talk to them through his songs and his life about his feelings and thoughts of what they had done to him and to so many others. But the people of God were not listening to the deep spiritual thoughts of the broken and wounded spirit of Brian, they only saw a heavy metal singer, a disgusting man who dressed weird, one who was evil and had foul mouth, but Pastor Deborah and The Heavenly Father saw the real spiritual person deep on the inside and went to get him and to love him.
Listen to his letter to Pastor Deborah and hear his silent cries of his heart.
So what is it to you anyway?
You never cared before?
Why the sudden change?
Did you need to come here just to clear your conscience?
Or
ARE YOU REALLY THERE?
Like last time when you said you would be, but I guess you thought I was not worth it
So, do not try to come back to me now. What is the catch? Huh?
You really think I am stupid
I see right thru your silly little games
Just stay away from me
Unless you can take my pain
Now, when I have shared my heart, my very being
You take it for granted and you have thrown me away.
How can I forgive you for something like that?
I really cared!
But I am over you now,
So, Goodbye.
This young man needed a healing and a touch of true love. He was told and shown that through Pastor Deborah in the realm of the spirit and in the world he lived in, The Kingdom of Darkness. Pastor Deborah asked his forgiveness as a representative of the Kingdom of Heaven for the people of God abusing him sexually, emotionally and spiritually and thus throwing him away and into the waiting arms of Satan. His heart was broken, wounded and pained. Pastor Deborah had to be able to step into his pain and wounds and heal them and take them away so he would believe again in this Heavenly Father and his love for him. He needed to hear that he was wanted, loved and welcomed home to the family of God again even after all the evil he had done against God’s people and against God himself.
Agape Love came through Pastor Deborah and the spiritual re-connection was made by the bonds of Agape Love and by the Arms and Voice of a mother. Love won back a lost child to itself and a run away had come home.
