Monday, September 16, 2019

My Life

 

Written To Pastor Deborah Which Was Known As Pastor Jan At This Time

Written By A 17 Year Old Multi-Generational Satanist Who Pastor Deborah Had The Honor Of Offering Her The Gift Of New Spiritual Life Through Christ Jesus In October 1998.  This Precious Young Person Was not Able To Be In Total Freedom From her Family and Their Life of Multi-Generational Satanism At The Time She Wrote this Poem.

2001

 

I Live In A World Where All My Emotions Collide From One To Another

Anger Into Rage

Rage Into Shame

Shame To Torment

Torment To Fear

Fear To Lust

Lust To Hate

Hate To Suicide

Suicide To Crash

CRASH!

Every Day, It’s Like This

There Are Demonic Spirits All Around Me And In Me

I Am Totally Messed Up

 

But I Hear This Voice Inside Me,

Telling Me It Is Ok!

I Am Totally Messed Up

See, I Am A Satanist!

 

But Not One Who Just Goes By The Cute Little Name

I Didn’t Just Wake Up One Day And Say,

Hey,  I Think I’ll Go And Join A Coven And Start Breeding Babies For The Devil!!

Nope

I Was Born Into This World,

The Daughter Of A Satanic High Priest

My Entire Bloodline Comes From A Satanic Life,

Originating In Babylon

 

I Have Been Chosen To Birth A CHOSEN CHILD For Satan

 

Can’t Sleep

Can’t Eat

Can’t Live A NORMAL LIFE

Can’t Work

Can’t Go To School

Held Captive In My Own House

SATANISM IS MY LIFE!

 

I Breed Babies And Sacrifice Them To A god That Hates My Guts,

See,  I Know!

I Can See Right Thru You

I Can See Your Disbelief

That Is Why He Has So Much Power

And

You Christians Are Laying Down Defeated

 

See,

I Am The Chosen One!

As my Great-Grandmother Lay Dying

She Told Me Of My Future

A Savior Would Come To Me, And Together

She & I

Would Snatch These Beautiful Souls Out Of Satan’s Reach

See,

This Lady is A Part Of Me

And Thru Her God, I Have Found Peace

 

Now I AM Not Out Physically Yet,

Maybe Someday That Can Be

But,

I Will Risk My Life To See People In The Darkness SET FREE

I Have Taken Brutal Beatings

Been Raped By Both Men And Women

Seen Murders And Abortions

Helped Kill Babies

Men And Women Who WOULD NOT OBEY

Cut My Skin With Knives

Because The Agony Does Not Go Away Till I Reach The High Place

Self Mutilation And Disassociation IS HOW WE ALL SURVIVE

 

It Is Not All Fun And Games

You Tend To Learn That Once It Is All Too Late

Once You Are In, You Are In!

There Is No Escape!

 

And Then All Of A Sudden!

A Light Pokes Thru Your World

A Short Little Old Lady Says She Has Found The Way

So,

YOU TRY HER,

YOU FIGHT HER,

YOU LIE TO HER

YOU TEST HER

You Find Out SHE IS FOR REAL!

And

YOU HOLD ON TO HER!

Still You Cannot Explain THIS LOVE FOR HER

Everybody Thinks You Are Crazy

And

Yet, You Never Let Go!

She Brings TRUTH TO THE LIES

And

PEACE TO YOUR SOUL

She Represents A god I Never Knew

Why Would Somebody DIE For Me After ALL The Things I HAVE DONE?

I’m Only 17

But There Are Millions Out There, 

JUST L IKE ME

Unseen, Unheard And Waiting, Hoping

FOR SOMEONE TO HELP THEM TOO!

 

Will It Be You?

Are You Strong Enough To Face The Powers Of Hell?

Satan Has Called Me A Judas To Him

I Humiliated Satan In Front Of His People

I Have Paid The Price

And Still Am Paying For My Decision To Follow Jesus Christ

 

I Will Not Rest Until My Family Is Saved

All Satanist And Witches Saved

And Set Free From Their Torment

 

Love Set Me Free

It Is A Day By Day Fight

And

That Is All I Have To Say

 

 

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