Written by a 17 year old multi-generational Satanist who I, Pastor Deborah who was known as Jan at the time, had the honor to introduce the author of this poem, Amanda, to The Lord Christ Jesus as her savior , Lord and King in October 1998. This young person at the time of this poem to me was still not able to completely be free from her family’s multi-generational religion and service to Satan as a chosen tribe, clan, family.
2001
I live in a world where all my emotions collide from one to another
ANGER into RAGE
RAGE into SHAME
SHAME into TORMENT
TORMENT to FEAR
FEAR to LUST
LUST to HATE
HATE to SUICIDE
SUICIDE to SADNESS
SADNESS to CRASH
CRASH!
Every Day it’s Like This!
There are demonic spirits all around me and in me
I am totally messed up
But I hear this Voice inside of me
Telling me it is ok!
I am totally messed up
SEE, I am a SATANIST!
But not one who just goes by the cute little name
I didn’t just wake up one day and say,
Hey, I think I’ll go and join a coven and start breeding babies for the devil
NOPE!
I was born into this world,
The daughter of a satanic high priest
My entire bloodline comes from a satanic life,
Originating in Babylon
I have been chosen to birth a chosen child for Satan
Can’t sleep, Can’t Eat
Can’t live a “normal ” life
Can’t work
Can’t go to school
Held captive in my own house
Satanism is my life!
I breed babies
and
Sacrifice them to a god that hates my guts
See, I know!
I can see right thru you
I can see your disbelief
That is why he has so much power
and
You Christians are laying down defeated
See,
I am the chosen one!
As my great-grandmother lay dying
,
She told me of my future
A Savior would come to me
and together
She and I
Would snatch these beautiful souls out of Satan’s reach,
See
This lady is a part of me
And thru her god, I have found peace
Now I am not out physically yet,
Maybe someday that can be,
But,
I will risk my life to see people in the darkness
SET FREE
I have taken brutal beatings
Been raped by both men and women
Seen murders and abortions
Helped kill babies
Men, and women who would not obey
Cut my skin with knives
Because the agony does not go away till I reach the high place
Self-Mutilation and disassociation is how we all survive
It is not all fun and games
You tend to learn that once it is all too late
Once you are in, you are in!
There is NO ESCAPE!
And Then all of a sudden!
A light pokes thru your world
A short little old lady says she has found the way
So,
You try her
You fight her
You lie to her
You Test her
You find out she is for real
And
Then you hold on to her!
Still you cannot explain this love for her
Everybody thinks you are crazy
And
Yet, you never let go
She brings Truth to the lies
And
Peace to your soul
She represents a god I never Knew
Why would somebody die for me after all the things I have done?
I’m only 17
But there are millions out there
JUST LIKE ME
Unseen!
Unheard!
And
Waiting, hoping for someone to help them too!
Will It be you?
Are you strong enough to face the Powers of Hell?
Satan has called me a Judas to him
I humiliated Satan in front of his people
I have paid the price
And still am paying for my decision to follow Jesus Christ
I will not rest until my family is saved
All Satanists and witches saved
And set free from their torment
Love Set Me Free
It is a day by day fight and That Is All I Have To Say
Love Amanda