This story involves a major spiritual test that each and every one MUST TAKE if they are going to become ONE spiritually with The Most High God.
Testing and more Testing by the Fire of God The Most High.
What Was Important To Me?
What Did I VALUE Above All?
This “spiritual test” comes to all that desire a very close spiritual relationship with The Heavenly Father as a mature child/a Son and IT will come!
Of course, as always at the time, I DID NOT KNOW IT WAS A SPIRITUAL test or even the magnitude of it until after I went through It and passed.
The Story or rather the TEST began one morning in my daily prayer times and fellowship with The Most High God. I went spiritually, as I always do to the spiritual Throne Room of The Heavenly Father in Heaven to worship and praise Him and to just talk to Him.
Well, when I got there
He Was Not There!!!
I Looked Everywhere, But He WAS NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!!!
I Could Not
Feel His Presence
HE WAS NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!!!
This went on for 3 days!!
3 Long and Lonely Days!!
The same agony as Jesus Christ felt and experienced on the cross from His Father, Such Loneliness!
I asked forgiveness for everything I could think of.
I asked The Most High God to just speak to me and bring His spiritual Presence back into my life
I cried and cried out to Him
I told Him NOTHING was MORE IMPORTANT than TO FELLOWSHIP with Him
NOT The Spiritual ANOINTING He Had Placed on me.
NOT the Spiritual GIFTS I operated out of
NOT The Agape Love I had been given for the LEAST OF JESUS CHRIST’S BRETHREN
NOT any ministry I was to do for Him
NOT my Family
NOT anyone or anything!
I could not stand to go one minute, one more day without His Presence in my life, without Him to talk to.
Only Him and His Presence WAS IMPORTANT TO ME!
Three Long hard, lonely days He spiritually allowed me to be without His Voice, His Presence, His Fellowship
Such Agony and Loneliness for me spiritually.
I thought I would DIE!! I now knew what Jesus Christ Felt on the Cross!
I had NEVER FELT SUCH LONELINESS, EMPTINESS!
He was all that mattered to me
HIM AND HIM ALONE!!
I was in a Major Test for what was most important to me
Him or The Anointing?
Him or His Gifts?
Him or His Ministry?
Him or Ministry?
Him or Others?
Him or Blessings?
I HAD TO HAVE HIM AND HIM ALONE!!
He tried my spiritual heart and soul to bring up to the surface any selfish, prideful, unholy, impure motives/desires that may have been there.
and He spiritually, emotionally and mentally put me in a spiritual place where I had to choose what I truly desired/wanted/loved more than
I CHOOSE HIM AND HIM ALONE!
I passed the TEST!
WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE?